This past Friday saw Saddle Creek reissue I Love My Mom, the debut album from Asheville-based artist Indigo De Souza, and today brings news of an entirely new album from the songwriter called Any Shape You Take, which will arrive on August 27. She has also shared a single called “Kill Me”, saying:
“I wrote ‘Kill Me’ sometime in 2018 when I was really tired and fucked up in a lot of ways. I was deeply consumed in a big crazy love and coming to terms with the reality of living with mental illness. I recorded myself stream-of-conscious singing it on the kitchen floor at night with my laptop cam. I found the video about a year later, and could barely recognize the person singing. It was such a strange feeling watching the video because I couldn’t remember writing the song, but little bits and pieces of it felt familiar to me. It felt like it had been a lot longer than a year.”
Set to be the closer of Any Shape You Take, “Kill Me” finds De Souza right at the end of her rope – displaying borderline mania in the song: “Baby darling devil, I love you / I love you, I love you — kill me in the morning.” However, De Souza is not going out with a whimper, and “Kill Me” kicks into rambunctious indie rock mode, replete with power pop harmonies begging “kill me slowly”, before she nosedives into the nihilistic chorus – “I know you’ll follow” – delivered with the kind of commitment that makes you scream along with ‘fuck yeah’ empathy. Later she offers, worryingly “Fuck me till my brains start dripping / Down to the second floor in our home,” but it’s all part and parcel of the Indigo De Souza experience. While “Kill Me” might not be the most uplifting way to announce an album, it certainly shows off the multi-faceted and sharp-tongued talent that De Souza possesses, and that we can expect a lot more of on Any Shape You Take.
Watch the Lindsay Dye-inspired and female wrestling-featuring video for “Kill Me” below or find the song on streaming platforms.