Oxford-based artist feeo recently delivered the futuristic jam “End Song”, and with her debut EP feels like we’re getting older doesn’t it on the horizon, she’s today shared the title track along with a video. Introducing the song, feeo says:
“‘feels like we’re getting older doesn’t it’ is about being a part of a generation who are too terrified of the future to move forward. Instead we eternalise ourselves in the eyes of those in our present. Both scared to grow up and yet constantly rejecting the naivety of our younger selves. When we were 15, our love letters felt like infatuation and lingering eye contact. Now that we’re older they start to feel a bit more like relationships that only exist when it’s night time. Living in the space between a fear of abandonment and total indifference. Sex is now just a token of our physical existence- gone in the morning.”
Flipping the script from the impishly unbothered side we heard on “End Song”, feeo this time induces us into a bubble of quietly simmering despair on “feels like we’re getting older doesn’t it”. Incandescent synths rock back and forth, overlapping to create uncertain terrain where feeo’s tense-yet-meandering mind can wander. She takes a wide-angled view of the fears that prickle under the skin of our generation, and concentrates it into her own personal mortal worries “the fear it grips and it chokes me from inside,” she admits, and we feel at once her humanity and her regret so heavily that it leaves you dizzy. She’s not alone though; throughout “feels like we’re getting older doesn’t it” she addresses her concerns to someone – “I know you’re just as terrified, babe” – and in these intimate admissions she reminds us that none of us are alone in this terrifying and unstoppable journey into the uncertain future.
On the video, she says:
“For the video I really wanted to explore the idea of performative physical intimacy as both an act of selfishness and selflessness. In order to perform, we must be perceived by someone else- the affirmation of self is totally tied to how others see us. I was thinking particularly about my own performance of femininity. The idea is that the video is totally self absorbed, totally revolving around me, and yet is a performance that only serves its purpose when perceived by others.”
Watch it below or listen to “feels like we’re getting older doesn’t it” on streaming platforms.